Well, here I am afraid of being trapped by my own creation. In the middle of my pursuit, I finally slow my step. Last mistake I made, I took it as my guidance.
For long time, I never left my self alone. But time by time everybody is changing. I know nobody’s immortal. Like feeling, changing.
Now I am with my self build a castle, with a flag of freedom. I color it colorfull. I put a wonderful chandelier as my jewel. I am happy for it.
I see the man behind, he is just faded away. He can’t catch me anymore. He is part of my life. I called him “my past”.
But one thing is unexpected. I drag a subject in my castle. Totally untrue. What I expect from unexpected matter. What If I am too deep and cant let it go. Am I staying in my own delusional sunset? Am I strong enough to be sane?
Now I am holding a totem. My secret totem. I dont wanna get lost in the middle of my own beautiful creation.
Inside of me shouts to someone out there..
Take me..take me outta here!