Monthly Archives: Oktober 2015

What I am going to do without you, Dad!

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Dad, One year after u’re gone away from us here. My mom is so sensible cause she is missing u so bad. There is a change in our live. Praying a lot for u the only thing that I know to send u a gift. Every friday night, I believe u r near. U always come to my dream when I forget about something, or u only want to tell me what I should do.

Dad, I do all the things like what u taught to me. I am trying to be responsible for everything related to our family. I know u never told me by to do list, but u showed me how by doing it.

Dad, now I learn to save my money. Not only for me, but for our family and also for u. U have spent ur money for me, starting I was born till I am now. I have to give it back to u by giving and sharing to all religious innocent kids who will water u with their prayers. I do the same. I am so sorry if I seldom visit u. I promise I’ll be there everyweek n make u proud of me.

Dad, I am not a kid anymore now, but deeply I still need ur hands to guide me. But I believe God has sent u to the paradise, if u r happy now, I’ll be happy too.

Dad, take a rest now, I’ll be the next guardian for our family..dont worry! I am strong cos I am like u!

Thank u, Dad! Allah bless u…

Not 100% Me

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Calm. Not so calm. Pretty. Not so pretty.

What I am doing is not 100% what I wish. I am just trying to be kind-hearted because I’m never 100% kind-hearted. Understand what I’m saying? Hahaha. 100% nope, right?

There is a part of me as the evil, I am so selfish, rude, and extremely indifferent.

What I am showing now, this is not that part, but when u find me as not my self, dont run away, but stay.

I just need time to be sober, and i’ll call u when i’m done with it.